Last Wednesday, the Mother of a close friend of mine passed away. I've known her since the sixth grade. She had been battling cancer for awhile now and when I saw her in late July she looked sick and frail—nothing like the woman I had known for so many years. My friend's husband called me last Monday to let me know the doctors were only giving her hours to live. My heart broke for my friend. To sit by your Mother's side and watch her die. I cannot imagine what that must be like.
I haven't talked to her since I found out. I couldn't call her. I didn't know what to say. I'm such a shitty friend.
I saw in the obituaries online Friday that she had died. Tonight is the visitation. There will be no funeral, only this. We'll go after Josh gets home from work & we drop Gideon off at my Mom's. It's going to suck. I know I'm going to break down. Josh knows it too—we talked about it yesterday. I just don't do good in these situations. I'm an extremely emotional person and seeing my friend (and her stepdad and grandmother) tonight is going to so hard.
I haven't been to a funeral in five years. This is the first time I have to console a friend losing a parent. Sometimes being an adult sucks.